If you died today, would people know the real you?

I don't mean to say make sure you tell people you love them and say youre sorry. I guess I don't know exactly what I mean.

How much do people know of the real me? Which people are really my friends? What kind of secrets are people keeping? What is my secret passion? What do I like to do?

If I died, I wonder which people would show up at my funeral. And out of the ones that show up, I wonder who will only go because of the other people there, and who will go because they know me and miss me. And out of those who don't go, I wonder if they just won't feel like it, or if they'll have good excuses. I wonder what everyone would say about me, and what everyone would remember about me.

The more I think about funerals, the less I think I want to have one. They seem really fake. The people who know you the best, or think they know you best, or want people to think they know you the best, go to the front and tell things about you which are probably lies. They're either lies because the person doesn't know you very well in the first place, or because if they told the truth, no one would want to listen.

I'm not saying I wouldn't do the same thing. If my best friend died, I would go to their funeral, and I would talk about good times. I probably wouldn't mention much about problems, and I would probably remember situations to my own advantage, since that person wouldn't be there to prove me wrong.

What a post.