Here it is, once and for all: Why I Don't Want To Go To College.

Once upon a time, I was accepted to Baylor, then A&M, and I was deciding between them. It took me a while, but I finally zoomed in on tamu and decided that was the better place for me. Then I got a letter from Trinity, a tiny school in San Antonio I fell in love with once a long time ago. Suddenly, 3 options was too much for me to handle, and I flipped out.My feet haven't found the ground yet... By May 1st, I have to have a letter postmarked to one of these schools indicating them as my final decision. My dad kept pressuring me to pick one, and I still didn't know, so I said Trinity. We sat down one night and filled out the paper work to accept all my scholarships and picked a major and everything and mailed it in. The end, you would think. Then I woke up in the middle of the night and started filling out the form to ask for my money back, and I filled out all the forms to be an aggie, but I couldn't find my checkbook and I fell back asleep.

Trinity is a good school. They have really smart kids, a small acceptance rate. They're small, about the size of CHS. They have hallympics (dorm v. dorm olympics). The campus is really pretty. The dorms are super, super nice (everyone has their own walk in closet, bathrooms are shared between suites, private balconies, maid service). They have a really nice cafeteria with tons of options and tasty food. I got lots of money in scholarships. The library is massive and beautiful. The theater program is intense. The River Walk is close by, just like Fiesta Texas and I guess the Alamo if you're into that sort of thing.

But A&M is appealing to me for different reasons, which is what makes them so hard to compare. I never wanted to go there in the first place. I guess you could say this whole thing is Nick's fault. I wanted to go to UT, but we took a campus tour and I ended up not liking it at all. Then on the way back (kind of on the way...) my dad drove Nick and I to A&M. And I loved it. I could see myself there. I didn't like the one place where you can't walk on the grass, but I liked how they show movies in this one theater, and I could see myself going there, and I could see myself shopping in their little bookstore and I could see myself studying in that library and I could see myself going out with friends to those restaraunts. And that's the difference.

Trinity has so many great things. But A&M just felt a better color for me... [shallow comparison]-----> It's like when I was shopping for my prom dress, and I absolutely loved the light blue one- everything about it! But the pink just looked better on me than light blue, so I got it... I still want that blue dress, but I know this pink one will make me very happy.


And another thing! I hate how people talk about college all the time! Because everyone is looking forward to it but me, since I don't even know if I'm going to the right place. My dad goes to A&M once every week or two to recruit people, and he always tells them about me, and they always tell him it's a great place and I should go there. But the lawyer lady who works with my dad went to Trinity and she's just like me, dad says, and she loved it and says I have to go there! And it's not just them. Nick says stuff like "I was in English today and my whole table is all going to A&M but so is this one girl and we were talking about how we're going to see her when we're there and it'll be bad." But that's not so bad afterall, because I won't see anyone I know, and I'll be scared and lonely. I want friends to be with me where ever I go.

And don't tell me I'll make new friends in college. I'm sure I will. But I finally like the friends I've got now! And don't tell me we'll keep in touch since we have AIM and cell phones. Because before this weekend I hadn't seen Diana in months. And I never talk to Steph Sneakers either. They were my two best friends less than a year ago. No one can say that they'll have enough time to keep up with everyone they were best friends with in high school. But I bet it's a lot easier if you still see them all the time.

I like the way things are going now, without me in college. And I don't want them to change, ok?

Once for April Fools day we told Mrs. Smith I got accepted to Harvard, and she seemed to think that was a great place to go! Maybe I'll go there instead.