Acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the Lord searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever.

1 Chronicles 28:9

Acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the Lord searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever.

1 Chronicles 28:9

If you make the Most High your dwelling-
even the Lord, who is my refuge-
then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

Psalm 91:9-13

One time I read somewhere or maybe someone told me that if you read two chapters of the bible a day, you can finish it in a year. So I started a while back. I'm on day 221 today. By that logic, I should be on the 442nd chapter of the bible. I'm not. In fact, I'm pretty far away. I slacked off a ton during marching season, but I thought if I read 3 chapters a day now instead of two, I can catch up. Except then i counted. I'm only keeping up, you see.

There are 1009 chapters in the bible. Thats 2.764 chapters a day. Only its a leap year. Oops, I forgot about that. 2.757. Anyhow, psalms (which is soo long) and 4 other books don't even have chapters. That's a lot more than it looks. I'm way behind. Why didn't I know this when I started?

My goal was to finish before I start college. But now it seems way harder, and way farther away.

"John's leaving. Will you come to church then?"
"Who's that?"
"The senior pastor. Then someone new will come."
"Why is it so important that I go to church? Is my faith not good enough?"

Just one example of the incredibly stupid and pointless fights I constantly have with my mom. I'm frustrated.

My dad normally goes to sleep around 10 PM. 11 if he's busy or had a soccer game or was out with clients or whatever. But I came home at 4 this morning, and he was sitting on the couch with his laptop and huge stacks of papers all around him. I was scared, because I thought he was waiting up for me. I had told mom I was leaving, but purposely neglected to tell him because I knew he wouldn't like it. But he said "I couldn't sleep, so I decided just to get up and work on some of the stuff that has just been running through my head." Logical, I suppose. "Aren't you tired?" I asked. "Of course, but it's 4 in the morning. It's too late to go to bed now."

Moral of the story is: If you ever think I say some stupid stuff, maybe it's because sometimes I don't get home until 4 in the morning and I'm just tired. Or maybe it's because my dad is just plain crazy, and it's possible I inherited some of that...

Some say life is hard
Like Swimming upstream
Or going against the grain
But I say life ain't that hard
'Cause I've seen how
The joy outweighs the pain

So you can sit and whine
About the time you've been having
Oh, but as for me, I choose to be
As happy as I can be

Because I'm alright
Trouble may find me
But it's not gonna keep me down
'Cause I'll hold on tight
To the Father who loves me
He likes having me around
Yeah, He loves me and He cares for me
And so I'm alright.

We go 'round and 'round
Back and forth and almost upside down
To buy who we are
A great big house, nice jeans, and a shiny car
But I'm learning, that this wolrld keeps turning
With or without me
So I'll do my best and leave the rest
To the One wathcing over us

Trying to find a peace in all the wrong places
Wanting to find release from the empy spaces
So I packed my bags and I set out
Following traces of a better day

So I walk a thousand miles in the wrong direction
Buildind callous on my feet and a fine collection
Of wasted days and foolish ways
And baggage that i picked up along the way

Then I hear a familiar voice
Calling me home
It's love's voice so I made the choice
To turn and follow

And I fall to You
and You see through
All the foolish games I play
And I cast my cares away
And I fall to you
'Cause I know you'll do
Oh, the same thing today
That you did every other day
When I went away.

Trying to find the way with my own eye
Is like trying to find the sun in a midnight sky
And the more I carry on alone
The harder it is to get by on my own

They I see you standing there
Calling me home
So I throw down all my bags
And run straight to your arms

And now You've got me standing
On the edge of the ledge
And you gently remind me
Of the words you said and I fall

Sometimes I have the weirdest dreams. Last night I woke up, really upset because the world wasn't round. That meant Alaska wasn't near Asia at all, and all my plans were ruined. Then I realized KC was in her bed, so it was OK. It was such a relief that she was purring. Everything made sense. And I went back to sleep.

Sometimes I really really want to make strongly worded posts about things that are currently bothering me. But I always know I'll regret them later, so I always delete them right before I publish them. I kinda wish I could do that when I spoke. I like how here I can write out whatever I want to say, and then if I realize it might hurt someone, I can just delete it. I never think that far ahead when I talk, and most of the time it gets me in some serious trouble.